THE USUAL SHIZZ

things can always get out of hand when you're on the REAL world. and life's unpredictability is one of its selling points. So let's start... My last update was months ago... School is mostly the one that's been in the way... But it was fun.

A lot of things already happened in that span of 2 months. Ugh ~ > A < Love and Craziness is always paired up when it's bout me. and everything has been twirled into this so-called sundae of weirdness and bliss. weird statements are also coming out of my mind so you might as well turn off your monitor if you dont want to hear/read more of this crap.

i met someone.


















will I srat with this again? hohoho~ ^ A ^ YES. A dude I guess... > w < and he's very very very very VERY (did I say very?) lol, VERY much like me. In a way. we're opposites but at the same time, very similar. he's perfect. well, the problem is, he's too perfect for me to reach him.

-SENTIMENTAL MODE ON!!!-

here we go again, asuming stuff that's nowhere close to reality. Girl paranoia is eating me alive. But I'm very happy my NEW SET of friends are there for me. ^ A ^
I'm happy. Very Happy about my friends but I admit there are a lot of things that are still bothering me in life.

i will be posting again... soon I hope. ^ A ^

FALTER

Today, was a really great day. I spent the whole afternoon with Myka and Abby and Yumeria.
I also realized a lot of things today. Things I was really stupid not to notice. One, I was really fortunate, to have so many blessing poured down to me. I was very lucky to have all these blessings with me, i was lucky to have such good people surround me. I was lucky to have so many friends with me. I have a family to go home too. It might be loose and full of chinks, but it’s still a stable one.
I may have a lot of fences before me, I might have some nails planted on my grounds, but I know, I will always have band aids and a safety aid kit waiting for me after I cross this line.
For the past weeks, I have been down to the sewers; Unable to see the silver line under the heavy clouds. I thought about giving up. I did. And now, I realize I was really stupid to do so. One bad habit of mine, is shouldering everything on my own. And I end up dying if not physically, mentally and spiritually.
I do not talk to anybody. Unless they talk to me about something important, I will reply with thrift sentences. It affected everything I did. In school, in work, and at home. Nobody knew what was going in my head. But they knew something was wrong. Everything seemed to feel apart for the first time in a long time. And I was shot by surprise.
But thanks to my lovely companions, I feel much better about my family issues. Thank you guys~
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Will people truly be happy in this world? Some would say yes. But not everybody agrees with the statement. Life is very unfair and we humans, as we are, have to live with this painful fact.
Recently, I have seen a person, who is exactly like myself. When I first saw him, I thought “Oh my god… Is this him?” I did not know him until my friend who has his friend introduced us. And then, at that moment, I felt the assurance that he was someone who will create a big hole in the history of my burn book. My story.

And I wished for us to see each other again. And it came true. We did met again, and along the process, we text each other and exchange e-mails. Like how normal friends would do. We are now friends.
And I knew inside me, that the feelings I have yet to label were growing rapidly inside me. But I have to stay as his friend or else I will lose all my privilege of being a friend. Free talks, free hugs, free company. All those things were broken into pieces when he told me he liked someone I knew very much.
Someone I also loved.
A special friend; and I was no match for her. She has everything a girl could have and a guy could ask for. She was the perfect doll, the perfect girl for him. His type. And then there I was, standing behind them , feeling awfully stupid for having false hopes.

I am slowly falling for a guy who is out of my league. Someone who is going to the top while I am left at the bottom.
*sigh*

went alive again

Random things that happened this week
 Did some doodle at the back of my notebook while at the bus
 Bought a new notebook for no particular purpose
 Saw a Korean schoolmate at the bookstore
 Designed some notebooks for fun
 Took some pictures of myself in my webcam
 Had a cold
 Was invited to go to a spa
 Went to the spa with some good friends
 Annoyed because of the rain
 Loved the rain because it’s cold
 Went to school the next day
 Ate macaroni left overs
 Did some research
 Thought about how to market myself
 Answered and passed a 6-paged math homework
 Attended P.E class for the first time this school year
 Bought a new table tennis racket
 Met some new P.E friends
 Cold went worst
 Got home and slept
 Woke up and took a cold bath
 Got a fever
 Fever got worst after drinking medicine
 Slept
 Woke up
 Fever was gone but still had cold
 Watched A Bug’s Life at Disney channel
 Slept
 Woke up and cold went away after doing some prayers
 Watched SpongeBob
 Did some sketching
 Did some inking
 Did some typing
 Did some anime review
 Watched MJ’s This is it
 Gave cookie a bath
 Got bitten by cookie
 Bought some prepaid card
 Fixed my closet
 Did some drafts of costumes
 Did some sewing
 Charged my phone

♥ Hlaf-way across the cookie jar ^_^

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weekend!!~~

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my manga is half-way across the first chapter and i am suffering > . < although i am enjoying everything [even my overpopulated schedule]!~ ♥

my digital coloring also stepped up a bit (only a bit though OTL)
i am still discovering the wonders of photoshop. i hope I'll find my own style in this path someday~
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heheheheh~


I've been playing Silent Hill recently too~ I dunno. Nostalgia maybe hehe~ the freaky graphics and the spooky OST just makes my sadistic nerves tingle :))

APH Epic day!!!~

❤*celebrates* yes yes yes ❤
it's my first APH shoot and I am loving it!!~ [PrussiaXHungary]
it's all good! it was epic ! our cosplayers... [Ami and Donjie] we're both so cute and raepable!!! \( ^ A ^ )/ ♥

nyaa~ ♥ ≧౩≦

the day was nice ^_^ we first went to Ami's place and chilled a bit... then we went on with the activity ^_^ [with Erving-sama, Andre, Jelani and meee!!] yey!

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i was doing some make up and assisting and i was also taking pictures with my digicam! \(｡◕‿‿◕｡)/
that day was reall fun! specially when were doing the shots and when we were thinking of ideas for the poses and stuff ^_^
it was so much fun being with Ami's hyper self and the others ~ they were all lovely ^_^

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Erving-sama and Andre were great photographers ^_^ their shots were really amazing ~
donjie was super cute and Ami was really Hawt as Prussia~ ♡♡
i used to only like Prussia before, but after Ami cosplayed him, I am loving that smexy man!!! ~ lol

we all had fun doing the bully shots, the best buds shots and the kiss shots ~ all the shots were precious ~ nyahahahahah~ ♡

✿after the sun went down, we went to mcdonalds and ate dinner. [yeah! one large coke and a hot fudge sunday is what we call dinner! *laughs hard*]
it was nice to see hungary and Prussia in mcdonalds. I just wished America was also with us. then again, i haven't found a nice America cosplayer in Phil yet. I wish there was a handsome and hawt one like Ami. ^^✿

✿ ( ^ A ^ ) and who wouldn't forget about Matthew? *laughs harder* he's the epic guy everybody's been talking about ever since we started walking home ^_6
he's an epic guy who fails life more that rei does [and nobody fails more that rei!]
that's why he's awsome!!!~



*laughs so hard*

hahahah~ our next stop was Ami's place again, teh guys were wtahcing Jelani play prince of persia when we , the girls were talking about stuff and getiing ready for the "Bed Shots" ....

*breaths deep*

Oh gawd. yesh. Prussia and Hungary! OMG i will stop here. i cannot tell anymore private stuff. All i can say is that my camera and my fangirl self were very much satisfied hahahaha~

Thank you Ami, Erving-sama, Andre, Jelani and Donjie for making this day extraordinary!!!✿

Pictures are available @ >>>>>> http://azaleiahime.deviantart.com
and

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1817730795

a day under the sun with ice cream and sweat

- Me and my best pals went to the amusement park together to play and have fun!-

[what else would we do there?]

we were ready, with our personal stuff, our food, our drinks, our self and our hyperness in our pockets...but the heat of the sun and the sweat is just too much for young girls like us. even though we are full of energy and enthusiasm, you just can't help but feel tired even just walking around the place.

i can't really say much cuz i am not that good with words, but it was a hell of FUN FUN FUN!! for me. [ = ^ w ^= ] I'm really happy i was able to spend time with my high school friends... since summer vacation has come to an end, i really felt the spirit of frienship when we were all playing together. under the sun with our messy hair and melted make0up. even with these things,m we weren't perfect, we looked haggard and awful, but still, we were laughing together, as sisters... that really made my heart go "poof!"

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(oh my, I;m becoming emotional... uuu ) lol!~

it was a very interesting and enjoyable day. thanks to my lovely sister lauren... who proveded me with survival necessities and support... to mara, for the ride, to donjie for the alcohol and all the things i asked from you, to patti for the food and to all of you again, for the love, the fun and the company...

too bad the others couldn't come at all... . [ > . < ] uuu~


*me and mara rode hot-air-bal;lon thingy ride, and when we tried to stay on one side, when the time that the ballon should be floating, it didn't float at all because we were too heavy. we were all laughing so hard... hahaha!!~

*we rode the carousel next,,, and i picked a blonde horse... because i like blonde people and the horse was pretty. the only problem is, my horse did not even move a single centimeter. it did not move up and down nor left and right while the others were enjoying their moving horses.

word of advice, "never ride a blonde horse... it doesn;t go all the way" LOL!!~ >__<

nothing in particular

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I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. but mostly about food *teehee!!~*
it's finally feeling like summer vacation, apart from the high temperature, i really do feel like being on vacation (=^___^=)

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I've been working on my 1st ever story-line with manga. before, i used to write stories, then compile a huge amount of oneshots and character illustrations ... but never a manga. where all the thingies happen... nu-uh. never. so I'm really hoping things would work out properly...

maybe it's because I've been hired as a layout and clean-up artist... for some reason, cathy-sama inspired me to develop my koi-series into a manga sequel rather than a novel. I really am no good in writing so i thought , why not try it ...

but I was really stupid to do this when summer's juts about to end. *sighs* i really like drafting anf planning... it's not too much work cuz the characters have already been planned out. all that is left is inking, cleaning, scanning and editing. of course i want it to look professional even if it's my 1st try.[ >__< ]

*kinchou!!~*

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i'M doing the Koi♥Series [cherry almond Koi ♥ SURU!~] WINTER ... [AkiXToki] I'll update the stories as soon as i finish the 1st volume ^ w ^ so everybody can read and understand what was going on in my head. :)





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i'm really nervous so i am working hard, not for anybody but for myself


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-あき