CHOOSE YOUR HEART

LEISURE

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EXTREME PARADIGM SHIFTING

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so my last post was done some time in July. It's already November.... 2010 will almost say goodbye and hello New Year. But of course before anything else, Christmas must be celebrated. ( ^ w ^ )/

So many things already happened after I updated my blog and I must say, I feel regret for not being able to update my Brain Juice. ( > . < ) Life has been very demanding nowadays and leisure is already a luxury only a afew can have.






Even so, Life can now be considered "worth it"... This is the first time I admitted this fact~ and I'm happy I realized this. Thanks to this person I met months ago~

You know who you are~ and I thank you for everything [LOL] ♥♥♥

THE USUAL SHIZZ

things can always get out of hand when you're on the REAL world. and life's unpredictability is one of its selling points. So let's start... My last update was months ago... School is mostly the one that's been in the way... But it was fun.

A lot of things already happened in that span of 2 months. Ugh ~ > A < Love and Craziness is always paired up when it's bout me. and everything has been twirled into this so-called sundae of weirdness and bliss. weird statements are also coming out of my mind so you might as well turn off your monitor if you dont want to hear/read more of this crap.

i met someone.


















will I srat with this again? hohoho~ ^ A ^ YES. A dude I guess... > w < and he's very very very very VERY (did I say very?) lol, VERY much like me. In a way. we're opposites but at the same time, very similar. he's perfect. well, the problem is, he's too perfect for me to reach him.

-SENTIMENTAL MODE ON!!!-

here we go again, asuming stuff that's nowhere close to reality. Girl paranoia is eating me alive. But I'm very happy my NEW SET of friends are there for me. ^ A ^
I'm happy. Very Happy about my friends but I admit there are a lot of things that are still bothering me in life.

i will be posting again... soon I hope. ^ A ^

FALTER

Today, was a really great day. I spent the whole afternoon with Myka and Abby and Yumeria.
I also realized a lot of things today. Things I was really stupid not to notice. One, I was really fortunate, to have so many blessing poured down to me. I was very lucky to have all these blessings with me, i was lucky to have such good people surround me. I was lucky to have so many friends with me. I have a family to go home too. It might be loose and full of chinks, but it’s still a stable one.
I may have a lot of fences before me, I might have some nails planted on my grounds, but I know, I will always have band aids and a safety aid kit waiting for me after I cross this line.
For the past weeks, I have been down to the sewers; Unable to see the silver line under the heavy clouds. I thought about giving up. I did. And now, I realize I was really stupid to do so. One bad habit of mine, is shouldering everything on my own. And I end up dying if not physically, mentally and spiritually.
I do not talk to anybody. Unless they talk to me about something important, I will reply with thrift sentences. It affected everything I did. In school, in work, and at home. Nobody knew what was going in my head. But they knew something was wrong. Everything seemed to feel apart for the first time in a long time. And I was shot by surprise.
But thanks to my lovely companions, I feel much better about my family issues. Thank you guys~
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Will people truly be happy in this world? Some would say yes. But not everybody agrees with the statement. Life is very unfair and we humans, as we are, have to live with this painful fact.
Recently, I have seen a person, who is exactly like myself. When I first saw him, I thought “Oh my god… Is this him?” I did not know him until my friend who has his friend introduced us. And then, at that moment, I felt the assurance that he was someone who will create a big hole in the history of my burn book. My story.

And I wished for us to see each other again. And it came true. We did met again, and along the process, we text each other and exchange e-mails. Like how normal friends would do. We are now friends.
And I knew inside me, that the feelings I have yet to label were growing rapidly inside me. But I have to stay as his friend or else I will lose all my privilege of being a friend. Free talks, free hugs, free company. All those things were broken into pieces when he told me he liked someone I knew very much.
Someone I also loved.
A special friend; and I was no match for her. She has everything a girl could have and a guy could ask for. She was the perfect doll, the perfect girl for him. His type. And then there I was, standing behind them , feeling awfully stupid for having false hopes.

I am slowly falling for a guy who is out of my league. Someone who is going to the top while I am left at the bottom.
*sigh*

went alive again

Random things that happened this week
 Did some doodle at the back of my notebook while at the bus
 Bought a new notebook for no particular purpose
 Saw a Korean schoolmate at the bookstore
 Designed some notebooks for fun
 Took some pictures of myself in my webcam
 Had a cold
 Was invited to go to a spa
 Went to the spa with some good friends
 Annoyed because of the rain
 Loved the rain because it’s cold
 Went to school the next day
 Ate macaroni left overs
 Did some research
 Thought about how to market myself
 Answered and passed a 6-paged math homework
 Attended P.E class for the first time this school year
 Bought a new table tennis racket
 Met some new P.E friends
 Cold went worst
 Got home and slept
 Woke up and took a cold bath
 Got a fever
 Fever got worst after drinking medicine
 Slept
 Woke up
 Fever was gone but still had cold
 Watched A Bug’s Life at Disney channel
 Slept
 Woke up and cold went away after doing some prayers
 Watched SpongeBob
 Did some sketching
 Did some inking
 Did some typing
 Did some anime review
 Watched MJ’s This is it
 Gave cookie a bath
 Got bitten by cookie
 Bought some prepaid card
 Fixed my closet
 Did some drafts of costumes
 Did some sewing
 Charged my phone