filth in beauty

The reverse side of beauty
It died by beloved filth.
sexual disgrace

The reverse side of beauty
It died by beloved filth.

幻惑の海　沈んだ蛍
否定は欲求上の嘘
矛盾で染まる体温
理性を被る愛撫に
踊り溶け込む春は不意に
汚らわしく
My mind which falls

Your seed and my seed never mixes.
The connection of this blood is eternal.
You cannot finish suppressing the desire.
To true daughter...(Sexual disgrace)

吐息塞ぐ脈打つ「飢え」は
解り合えぬ紅蓮を求む

Closet mind is distorted instability.
please release me before breaking.
How long...
In humiliation
The countless fatal scar was born.

(Sexual disgrace)

Prohibited bud...
Reckless driving memory...
The kin' collapses...
Near relatives on death...
The smell of a cigarette smell breath&shit
Moment that bitter white jam is mixed
Inside of a brain caused an error
and goes mad by the sweet bug

Your seed and my seed never mixes.
The connection of this blood is eternal.
You cannot finish suppressing the desire.
To true daughter...(Sexual disgrace)

首を這わす舌先と手
望む表情　紅蓮に染まれ

Closet mind is distorted instability.
please release me before breaking.
How long...
In humiliation
The countless fatal scar was born.

Closet mind is distorted instability.
please release me before breaking.
So long...
In humiliation
The final art is your dead face

Dad which fell to the trap

i love the gazettE band. i love them. their music makes my soul feel alive. 

i don't love the sand

 "don't discard the value of none, take a closer look, and you will find...that there is totally no value at all."

this is not mine. it's the quote he gave me when he gave me a present. he gave me, a magnifying glass with crystal decorations...

i asked why and he replied this....

although he was an object of the past, he continues to live within my present days. as a friend. as a rival. somebody unwanted. 

and i thank him. for because of him, i realized, i am not to love the sand. it's it's not meant to be between my toes....

★Post it

our band's last recording was successful ^_^ i was happy it turned out well even though our lead guitarist wasn't around. the keycoard saved us!!!~ ^ A ^

i'm learning new songs and I'm back with my piano lessons so I can improve myself. for some reason, i got tired of studying the piano by myself. i awlasy end up being lazy or if I did figure a piece out, it'll be incomplete or just half-way through.

i want a little push from somebody better than me ^_^ at least that's what i feel.

~

i'm still working on my evening gown design.... doing drapes and foldings makes my head burst. you really need a lot [ and i mean a lot] of patience to produce an excellent piece of art. and sadly, what i lack for the moment is pure patience. (>.<)

it's difficult to work on one specific subject when your team mates have a different perspective on how to do things. maybe this is the reason I don't like working in groups. but even if i wanted to do the design by myself, i can't. rules says I have to find a partner. ( -A w A- ) NYAHAH